‘Another adventure’ as so my mother says. Is it though? I’ve experienced an easy life, sheltered from the “bad” of the world, close friends for nine years, not having to deal with the troubled world. But was it really all worth it?

It just seems I could have turned out better as a human, girl, whatever you want to specify. I’m not asking for anyone’s opinion I just want to say it here and now.

Moving. This was the hardest and bumpiest rock on my path to life. I’ve never dealt with so much emotional pain through anything. From fear of losing the one I love to never seeing my friends again.
I have had it easy for nine years of my life. I had the same friends, same school. Just three moves but nothing changed my school or life completely. I made better friends and still know and see them. But this seems so big.
I had made what seemed the best friend I’ve never knew (I don’t mean to hurt anyone’s feelings.). We had so much in common and we neither knew each other existed until Advisory. Savey. She was really there for me and we had some great times. You know who brought me and my 9 months (and one day today) together? Her. (As compliments to Jess to keep us together.) She is my true hero, I know I say it to many but she really was here for me through it all.

But enough with the love and caring of a friend. It’s time to get into the discussion. What I need to work on.

Studying is what I need. I need to study so I can get good grades. Get a good job, go to college, and well get a house and live the so called American Dream. But, I know I can make friends I mean I am pretty talkative. It’s just I hate starting over. Those two words have been in my mind ever since my mom said we are moving. I’m sick of starting over, I never have this much but now it really kicks in. I was planning on college to move again but I guess I have to move once more.
Marching band. I cannot believe that my new school doesn’t do competitions. I never loved a sport so much, and this will kill my social time just only doing football games. I hated those, they only thing I favored of it was my boyfriend being there.

Well I could have been a better person just in general. I never had to deal with so much at once. Moving. New School. Keeping in touch with friends and loved ones. Grandfather now in the hospital. My dad has a girlfriend and I love her very much and her daughters fun (a real good thing). What I’m trying to say is OVERLOAD much?

There is nothing left to say but all I want from watchers, real friends, and such is just the appreciation of reading all of this. My life can be better if I could control my emotions, but at least I’m here today right? At least I have friends and my boyfriend right? Just the different town and it’s just the wrong time to move. I just keep getting the thought of turning Amish and running away so my family can disown me and shun me, but I know it could never happen.